Tuesday

I'm back...sort of




Okay, just so ya'll know, I am back from Europe and I am working and doing laundry and cooking dinner, and all of the regular things I did before I left...except blogging.

I fully intend to post some awe-inspiring stuff VERY soon, but for now my creative juices are, well, in the process of being squeezed.

I am going to post pictures and stories from Europe and much much more.

Don't stop checking up on my blog from time to time because soon you will find what you came for...the wonderfulness that is me.

Ciao for now

Amber

Sunday

Gros bisous de Paris!




It was a 12-hour flight with a stop in Calgary and Edmonton (took off and landed a total of three times...talk about emersion therapy for those afraid of flying!). The seats were uncomfortable, the flight attendants were crabby (exept for Jerome), there was a three year old screaming for six hours during the night, and the woman in front of us coughed incessantly...but, after all that voila! WE have arrived in Paris!!! ITS BEAUTIFUL!!!


Its everything I though it would be (on first glance) and more! My gracious and beautiful friend Amanda greeted us at the airport and took us back to her place located in the 7th arrondissement (wow) of Paris in the Duroc area. She gave us a proper Paris introduction by taking us to her local Boulangerie (bakery) and bying us some baguets and cheese. We sat down after a long day of traveling, ate the freshly baked warm and crusty baguets with some French brie and gouda, and some nice Rose!! MMMMMMMM........I can't even describe the yuminess!


Yeah...well, I can't say too much only that we saw the Eiffel Tower all lit up tonight, walked through old parisian streets in the warm rain, had cafe au lait at a wonderful high-class cafe, and ate a three course authentic French dinner at an exquisite restaurant with goooooooood wine! (I even tried escargo!!! Wouldn't recomment it personallly).

Okay, well, just wanted to let you all know that I am experiencing c'est la belle vie! So amazing to be fulfilling one of my life long dreams.

love you all. Will update soon!

Bon soir mes amis!

Amber

Thursday

ditch the dogma dudes!

D O G M A


"Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people’s thinking.

Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

- Steve Jobs, CEO and founder of Apple Computers, Pixar (now chairman), and NeXT.



I would have to absolutely agree with this amazing quote. Being surrounded by too many opinions and ideas can sometimes get overwhelming, especially if you are the type of person that listens to what people say and actually takes the time to process it carefully.
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Growing up in a Christian environment, I very often found myself in a frazzled state trying to figure out what was right and wrong, and I lived with a lot of fear and shame because of this. I am not putting Christianity down in any way as this type of perceived tyranny is the product of any religion, belief, idea or standard that you are held accountable to by your friends, loved ones, or community. The reason Christianity and other religions can become heavy and opressive stems mostly from guilt and shame people begin to feel for "breaking the rules"- rules sometimes with God at the source, but rules with man at the source as well. They are pressured to change, to fit the "mould" but sometimes they just don't have the resources or foundations to make those changes - and no one is offering them either! At the end of the day many end up feeling hopeless and substandard, unable to see the accepting and forgiving nature of God (or people for that matter), or the value of their created lives. I have seen this happen to people myself, too many times...
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Religion, supposedly put in place to connect us with our creator, has mostly served to put a wedge between us.
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It was a day of thunder and lightening in my heart when I finally realized that many of the things I thought I believed, and actually measured other people by, were most likely false... or at least not intrinsically true! Its a humbling experience for every human being to finally say "I don't have all the answers". I mean, how many arguments are fought and wars waged on the basis of one side believing something different from the other, both sides believeing things impossible for human beings to prove anyway? Sigh.

Its hard to be human sometimes, having to learn to live with our many limitations - knowing all the secrets of the universe being just one of many from a very long list! The hardest part is that we are truly hungry for knowledge and understanding, and if we could have it all we would take it! But, alas, we must be content with the little morsels of truth that fall from God's table from time to time.

I stopped judging people for searching a long time ago. I stopped judging myself for doubting my faith at times also. Its not to say that I don't believe in God and that Christ came to save the world, I do, and very fervently, its just that I have come to terms with my own humanity and have realized that my faith truly is based on "things unseen". Because of this, I must believe as a child believes, without total proof, and with humility towards others who are also trying to figure out what that "unseen" thing really is, even if their beliefs fall outside the ideas of my christianity, your Islam, their Judaism, his Bhuddism, or her atheism, etc.

I think that God is big enough to help those searching for him to find him, including me. I learn a little bit more about God every day, and even though I have a HUGE list of things I have decided are "ultimate truth" (the existence of God being one of them), mine are just the first pages of a very very long book of revelation...I (we) have only just begun.

I mean, think about the concept of heaven - being up there worshipping God, everything is happy, everything is in order, but what happens after that? Do we just stop learning and growing as spiritual/emotional beings? No...yes...huh? I would hate to think of my journey of revelation ending, to be honest. "There must be more than this..."

Don't ask me what that "more" is though, I couldn't tell you....I won't ask you either because you couldn't tell me!

So friends, don't be worried about not knowing all the answers...no, be worried instead about not embracing and enjoying the learning process because you already think you know them all. Be worried about becoming arrogant and judgemental of those around you with different ideas, and being one of the people (I believe) God will hold accountable for waging the wars mentioned above just because you weren't willing to share the world with someone different from yourself.

If you think that I have "a lot to learn" for saying what I just did, you are probably one of those people. My advice to you - stop judging (lest ye be judged), don't be afraid of being wrong, and remember that you are just as finite as the rest of the human race. You will enjoy life and people a lot more if you can relax a bit. Why worry, "God is in control" after all, isn't he? He's gonna work out all the details...so chill.
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To summarzie, I will ask an age old question - what came first, the chicken or the egg?
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Ponder, ponder....E X A C T L Y !!!!!
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So, I'm not saying that you shouldn't try to understand anything, just that you shouldn't put all of your eggs in one basket!
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Hee hee...punny! I crack my self up!!! Get it? I "crack" myself up, like an egg? Okay, I'm done.

Isaiah 55 verse 7-11 says...

"Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD,
and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.

'For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,'
declares the LORD.
'As the heavens are higher than the earth,

so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:


It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.' "

What you ask is certain?

God knows what.


Peace out,

Amber

Wednesday

emotional blindness - a poem




I wrote this simple poem about the times in life when someone you love is unable to see the beauty that life has to offer them. You are so desperately wanting to show them a rainbow of colour and break through their anger, their grief, or their bitterness, but all you can do is be patient with them and hold on to that beauty on their behalf, believing they will be able to see if for themselves again one day.


emotional blindness, you can’t see the colours
i’m holding a rainbow but its really no use
the reds and the yellows, a sunset of passion
the blues and the purples, my hearts deepest hues

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i wish i could show you the beauty around you
and lift those thick scales of anger away
but all i can do is hold on to this rainbow,
until you are able to see it some day.
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how lovely the day when your eyes finally open
i will be standing there smiling at you
and you will know that i always believed
your eyes would one day see these colours anew.
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by: Amber
2006

Monday

P s a l m 1 8


Just wanted to post the lyrics to Lori Chaffer's acoustic version of Pslam 18.

She insightfully condenses the soul of this 50-verse psalm into a 4-verse ballad that keeps the meaning and intent fully intact. I have been drawing a lot of inspiration from Psalm 18 lately, as it reminds me that God truly is my great deliverer, and that I have great reason to "give thanks to you, oh Lord, among the nations, and sing praises unto Your name"

Psalm 18

I call to the Lord who is worthy of praise
And all my enemies don’t know where to face
The cords of death have entangled my feet
I cried to You and from Your temple You heard me and rescued me

He rode down on the wings of the wind
Dark clouds were a canopy around Him
He shot His arrows and He scattered my foes
With bolts of lightning they all became exposed

So I’ll sing alleluia
Alleluia
Praise the Lord

You, o Lord keep my lamp burning bright
My God turns my darkness into light
With my God I can scale a wall
With your help, I can win a war and not even fall

He makes my feet like the feet of a deer
And lets me stand on the heights high above my fears
He makes the path broad beneath my feet
So my ankles don’t turn and ruin me

So I'll sing alleluia
Alleluia
Praise the Lord

So I'll sing alleluia
Alleluia
Praise the Lord